FRIEND OR BOYFRIEND
3-D classroom was very noisy. Every one was shouting at top of their voices. Today is their last day before exams. Though Kumiko was there she didn’t even attempt to stop them. Its their last class, couldn’t stop them have their final laugh of their student’ life. Everyone will be graduating and gone. Though I would have other batches come I wont feel the same. I would miss them a lot. Especially ……. Her thoughts faded when someone hit her on the head with the papers, which was in her desk. She turned around to see Shin with papers in his hands.
He asked, ‘The bell rang long ago. What are you brooding about?’
Regaining herself, but becoming sad once again, ‘They left without saying bye to me? I thought they would definitely shed tears on separation but seems not one liked me. Everyone left without even a word. Think I haven’t done good job being their teacher. Am I no good Sawada?’ She was almost in tears.
‘Stop acting like that. You are being so emo. We still have exams left before saying goodbye. Don’t act like this any time again. I hate it’ He said in a very low voice. He started towards the door, before continuing, ‘By the way, but for you, they wouldn’t be even planning to attend the exams. So you are good.’
She followed him to the door out of the school. But she was still upset and she was trying very hard to control her tears. Shin has never seen her like this and he was very uncomfortable. He walked ahead of her very fast which she didn’t even realize. He hate it even more when she didn’t give her attention to him. He walked to her straight, and stopped her by grabbing her arms. She was so stunned and surprised.
‘I said quit acting like that. Its not the end. If you are gonna be like this, I wont ever talk to you again’ He shouted at her and left in a hurry.
Stunned at his madness, she just saw him walk fast and disappear behind the turn. Idiot I am gonna miss you all especially you. How can I act normal? She wanted to shout back but just withdrew her emotions and went to her house.
The next few days passed very quickly as the exams started. The students would come and talk to her after writing the exams, which she knew, would have been only because Shin told them to. They discussed their papers with her. The final exam was over, everyone was happy to go out of the school except for one red-haired student. He and Kumiko hardly spoke during the exams. She didn’t want to bother him so she always wore a smile whenever she saw him. But it was very obvious for Shin to find it out but he just kept ignoring it. The last exam being over, Shin started to go out of the class without talking to her. It hurt her very much. She finished her work and ran out of the school to catch to him but he was nowhere to be seen. She was frustrated. She was angered. She even wanted to shout and cry. Why Shin, why are you doing this to me. Is it wrong to show my emotions. Its only to you I am a bit free. I never show any of such emotions to anyone. I never had anyone like you for me. Is it wrong to think you as a special person? IS it wrong to think that you are always there for me not only when I am happy or want any suggestion but also when I want to shed tears? You are the only person who has ever seen me in such a state. Why Shin? Why? She was very upset and it was very visible in her face. But she didn’t let her tears down because he wasn’t there around to wipe it off or so she thought. She went to her home and went straight to the training hall. She punched the practicing bag till her hand fell off and she just fell to the floor. She stared the roof for long time and she was oblivious of what’s going around her.
Suddenly she heard Kyo’ voice shouting in the garden. Its better to be with some company, than to be alone, in this situation. She murmured to herself and went to find him. She was so stunned and shocked to see Shin with him. I shouldn’t have come out at all. She blamed herself but as Kyo already waved at her, she had to go to him.
‘Oujo, the young master has come to say his goodbye it seems. He’s going to go abroad for his higher studies. Isn’t he kind?’ Kyo was jabbering
She was shocked even more. It was very obvious from her expression. Even Kyo found it difficult to see his Oujo like that. He left both of them with some lame excuse.
‘So you are leaving’ She asked him
‘Why? Do you want me to be here?’
‘Why would I want that? And again, I was the one who said you are not needed in Avedo house’
‘But what’s with that ‘My world ends here’ expression on your face?’
She didn’t respond.
‘Actually I came here to say something important’ He said
She wasn’t listening. Her heart ached by the fact that she would be all-alone, after he’s gone. She was visualizing all the incidents she had with him. Seeing her not attentive, he shook her. She came back to the present.
‘hehe sorry. What were you saying’ She began acting all goofy.
‘Hey you can stop that’ he said without looking at her.
‘en? What?’
‘Your heheing ofcourse’
‘Now you don’t like my heheing too. I thought you just didn’t like me emotional. Just what should I do if I shouldn’t be emotional or heheing’
‘You are weird you know’ he said coldly.
It hurt her even more. She missed talking to him all these days and now he come and talk even more coldly. She was on the verge of loosing control over her emotions. Kumiko what happened to you? If anyone upset you, the only thing you would do is to beat them up. But you are you so weak now. Why cant you just put some sense into his brains by beating him. No I cant do that. I just cant do that to Shin. He’s not just a student to me. He’s more than that.
‘Why weren’t you talking to me the past few days?’ Kumiko asked
‘Eerrrr, you know I was busy. Don’t you?’
‘Busy han? You really don’t have to study hard I know that better than anything. You were avoiding me. Why did you do that?’
‘Well why would I do that’
‘That’s what I wanted to know’
‘What the big deal? Its only me who didn’t talk to you. All you other beloved students came to talk to you na. You were only worried about them’
‘I never said I didn’t bother about you’
‘Well, when I was still there in the class talking to you the day before exams, you were only worried that all others didn’t talk to you. Even though I was there, you only asked for them. Didn’t even bother to wish me or talk to me. Not that I expected.’ He said in a cold voice.
‘Hey I was only thinking about missing all you guys’
‘First, tell me clearly who am I to you. Am I same as Ochi and others to you? Am I like Tetsu and Minoru to you? Or am I your Shinohara?’ He said the last part with more emotion.
She just stared at him without any emotions. ‘You know you are definitely more important to me than my other students. Tetsu and Minoru would probably hate me if I tell you are much more important. But that’s the fact. And Shinohara-sensei, don’t even imagine yourself to be equal. You are much more important than any other people I have ever acquainted with. You are not my student anymore and I don’t just consider you as my bother, you are.. you are…. My FRIEND damn it. Is it that hard to understand? I always want you to be beside me. Be there for me always. I have never ever been so emotional in my whole life except for the past few days thinking that I should have to part with you.’
‘You are talking like I am your boy-friend’ He rolled his eyes but expectantly he met her eyes. There was no emotion but horror in it.
‘Shin, you idiot. All my other relations may change at any time. Many people may come in as my brothers or students. I may even end up not marrying him. But I just don’t want to be without you around. And you are NOT my boy friend. You are much more than that. My friend. My only friend. Sure I have Ms.Fujiyama but don’t you know you are the only one I always wanted to share and enjoy.’
‘err… you still talk like I am your boy-friend’
She whacked him on the head, which he dodged easily. She was even more surprised.
‘You always told don’t mess up with my business. I don’t want you to be around me. Blah blah blah….. and now you tell you want me to be by your side always’
She remained silence. Did he really not understand her emotions? Or is he really correct. Am I thinking him in Shinohara-san’ place? No way… She shook her head. He’ my student. My best one. And I want him to be by my side as he always did.
Seeing her facial reactions, Shin said, ‘Okay Kumiko! You don’t have to answer. If that’s what you want, I am more than happy to be your friend. Only that I always thought myself as a competitor to your Shinohara and I am not willing to let go of that thought for ever. I will wait till you make up your mind. I will be your friend till you call me your BF.’
Hearing her name for the first time from him, she was totally taken back. ‘What shouldn’t I call you by your name. Now that we are friends, I can call you by your name, Kumiko’ he said with a smirk.
‘Of course you are my BF’ She told with a even wide smirk.
He froze suddenly. He came near her to pull her to him. She suddenly moved aside, laughing,
‘BF means Beloved Friend Idiot’ she said running to the dining table where everyone was waiting for them.
Darn it Kumiko, I really want to be your boy-friend not just a friend. But anything to make you happy and back to normal, he thought following her to the dining table.
3-D classroom was very noisy. Every one was shouting at top of their voices. Today is their last day before exams. Though Kumiko was there she didn’t even attempt to stop them. Its their last class, couldn’t stop them have their final laugh of their student’ life. Everyone will be graduating and gone. Though I would have other batches come I wont feel the same. I would miss them a lot. Especially ……. Her thoughts faded when someone hit her on the head with the papers, which was in her desk. She turned around to see Shin with papers in his hands.
He asked, ‘The bell rang long ago. What are you brooding about?’
Regaining herself, but becoming sad once again, ‘They left without saying bye to me? I thought they would definitely shed tears on separation but seems not one liked me. Everyone left without even a word. Think I haven’t done good job being their teacher. Am I no good Sawada?’ She was almost in tears.
‘Stop acting like that. You are being so emo. We still have exams left before saying goodbye. Don’t act like this any time again. I hate it’ He said in a very low voice. He started towards the door, before continuing, ‘By the way, but for you, they wouldn’t be even planning to attend the exams. So you are good.’
She followed him to the door out of the school. But she was still upset and she was trying very hard to control her tears. Shin has never seen her like this and he was very uncomfortable. He walked ahead of her very fast which she didn’t even realize. He hate it even more when she didn’t give her attention to him. He walked to her straight, and stopped her by grabbing her arms. She was so stunned and surprised.
‘I said quit acting like that. Its not the end. If you are gonna be like this, I wont ever talk to you again’ He shouted at her and left in a hurry.
Stunned at his madness, she just saw him walk fast and disappear behind the turn. Idiot I am gonna miss you all especially you. How can I act normal? She wanted to shout back but just withdrew her emotions and went to her house.
The next few days passed very quickly as the exams started. The students would come and talk to her after writing the exams, which she knew, would have been only because Shin told them to. They discussed their papers with her. The final exam was over, everyone was happy to go out of the school except for one red-haired student. He and Kumiko hardly spoke during the exams. She didn’t want to bother him so she always wore a smile whenever she saw him. But it was very obvious for Shin to find it out but he just kept ignoring it. The last exam being over, Shin started to go out of the class without talking to her. It hurt her very much. She finished her work and ran out of the school to catch to him but he was nowhere to be seen. She was frustrated. She was angered. She even wanted to shout and cry. Why Shin, why are you doing this to me. Is it wrong to show my emotions. Its only to you I am a bit free. I never show any of such emotions to anyone. I never had anyone like you for me. Is it wrong to think you as a special person? IS it wrong to think that you are always there for me not only when I am happy or want any suggestion but also when I want to shed tears? You are the only person who has ever seen me in such a state. Why Shin? Why? She was very upset and it was very visible in her face. But she didn’t let her tears down because he wasn’t there around to wipe it off or so she thought. She went to her home and went straight to the training hall. She punched the practicing bag till her hand fell off and she just fell to the floor. She stared the roof for long time and she was oblivious of what’s going around her.
Suddenly she heard Kyo’ voice shouting in the garden. Its better to be with some company, than to be alone, in this situation. She murmured to herself and went to find him. She was so stunned and shocked to see Shin with him. I shouldn’t have come out at all. She blamed herself but as Kyo already waved at her, she had to go to him.
‘Oujo, the young master has come to say his goodbye it seems. He’s going to go abroad for his higher studies. Isn’t he kind?’ Kyo was jabbering
She was shocked even more. It was very obvious from her expression. Even Kyo found it difficult to see his Oujo like that. He left both of them with some lame excuse.
‘So you are leaving’ She asked him
‘Why? Do you want me to be here?’
‘Why would I want that? And again, I was the one who said you are not needed in Avedo house’
‘But what’s with that ‘My world ends here’ expression on your face?’
She didn’t respond.
‘Actually I came here to say something important’ He said
She wasn’t listening. Her heart ached by the fact that she would be all-alone, after he’s gone. She was visualizing all the incidents she had with him. Seeing her not attentive, he shook her. She came back to the present.
‘hehe sorry. What were you saying’ She began acting all goofy.
‘Hey you can stop that’ he said without looking at her.
‘en? What?’
‘Your heheing ofcourse’
‘Now you don’t like my heheing too. I thought you just didn’t like me emotional. Just what should I do if I shouldn’t be emotional or heheing’
‘You are weird you know’ he said coldly.
It hurt her even more. She missed talking to him all these days and now he come and talk even more coldly. She was on the verge of loosing control over her emotions. Kumiko what happened to you? If anyone upset you, the only thing you would do is to beat them up. But you are you so weak now. Why cant you just put some sense into his brains by beating him. No I cant do that. I just cant do that to Shin. He’s not just a student to me. He’s more than that.
‘Why weren’t you talking to me the past few days?’ Kumiko asked
‘Eerrrr, you know I was busy. Don’t you?’
‘Busy han? You really don’t have to study hard I know that better than anything. You were avoiding me. Why did you do that?’
‘Well why would I do that’
‘That’s what I wanted to know’
‘What the big deal? Its only me who didn’t talk to you. All you other beloved students came to talk to you na. You were only worried about them’
‘I never said I didn’t bother about you’
‘Well, when I was still there in the class talking to you the day before exams, you were only worried that all others didn’t talk to you. Even though I was there, you only asked for them. Didn’t even bother to wish me or talk to me. Not that I expected.’ He said in a cold voice.
‘Hey I was only thinking about missing all you guys’
‘First, tell me clearly who am I to you. Am I same as Ochi and others to you? Am I like Tetsu and Minoru to you? Or am I your Shinohara?’ He said the last part with more emotion.
She just stared at him without any emotions. ‘You know you are definitely more important to me than my other students. Tetsu and Minoru would probably hate me if I tell you are much more important. But that’s the fact. And Shinohara-sensei, don’t even imagine yourself to be equal. You are much more important than any other people I have ever acquainted with. You are not my student anymore and I don’t just consider you as my bother, you are.. you are…. My FRIEND damn it. Is it that hard to understand? I always want you to be beside me. Be there for me always. I have never ever been so emotional in my whole life except for the past few days thinking that I should have to part with you.’
‘You are talking like I am your boy-friend’ He rolled his eyes but expectantly he met her eyes. There was no emotion but horror in it.
‘Shin, you idiot. All my other relations may change at any time. Many people may come in as my brothers or students. I may even end up not marrying him. But I just don’t want to be without you around. And you are NOT my boy friend. You are much more than that. My friend. My only friend. Sure I have Ms.Fujiyama but don’t you know you are the only one I always wanted to share and enjoy.’
‘err… you still talk like I am your boy-friend’
She whacked him on the head, which he dodged easily. She was even more surprised.
‘You always told don’t mess up with my business. I don’t want you to be around me. Blah blah blah….. and now you tell you want me to be by your side always’
She remained silence. Did he really not understand her emotions? Or is he really correct. Am I thinking him in Shinohara-san’ place? No way… She shook her head. He’ my student. My best one. And I want him to be by my side as he always did.
Seeing her facial reactions, Shin said, ‘Okay Kumiko! You don’t have to answer. If that’s what you want, I am more than happy to be your friend. Only that I always thought myself as a competitor to your Shinohara and I am not willing to let go of that thought for ever. I will wait till you make up your mind. I will be your friend till you call me your BF.’
Hearing her name for the first time from him, she was totally taken back. ‘What shouldn’t I call you by your name. Now that we are friends, I can call you by your name, Kumiko’ he said with a smirk.
‘Of course you are my BF’ She told with a even wide smirk.
He froze suddenly. He came near her to pull her to him. She suddenly moved aside, laughing,
‘BF means Beloved Friend Idiot’ she said running to the dining table where everyone was waiting for them.
Darn it Kumiko, I really want to be your boy-friend not just a friend. But anything to make you happy and back to normal, he thought following her to the dining table.
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