Tuesday, August 21, 2007

Poem

FRIENDS


Not a sibling, Not any other relation,
A Friend is a person, without whom
Life is an empty station

Siblings fight,could be solved
without even its trace
Spouse fights, should be resolved
and never should have a trace

But a fight with a friend
sucks away the soul,
Leaves a scar, never to be erased
even by the change of time

So treasure them, cheish them
and wish them a lot
with a beautiful heart
A HAPPY LIFE TOGETHER FOREVER

My Gokusen Fanfic - 2 [ Part 1]

FRIEND OR BOYFRIEND


3-D classroom was very noisy. Every one was shouting at top of their voices. Today is their last day before exams. Though Kumiko was there she didn’t even attempt to stop them. Its their last class, couldn’t stop them have their final laugh of their student’ life. Everyone will be graduating and gone. Though I would have other batches come I wont feel the same. I would miss them a lot. Especially ……. Her thoughts faded when someone hit her on the head with the papers, which was in her desk. She turned around to see Shin with papers in his hands.


He asked, ‘The bell rang long ago. What are you brooding about?’


Regaining herself, but becoming sad once again, ‘They left without saying bye to me? I thought they would definitely shed tears on separation but seems not one liked me. Everyone left without even a word. Think I haven’t done good job being their teacher. Am I no good Sawada?’ She was almost in tears.


‘Stop acting like that. You are being so emo. We still have exams left before saying goodbye. Don’t act like this any time again. I hate it’ He said in a very low voice. He started towards the door, before continuing, ‘By the way, but for you, they wouldn’t be even planning to attend the exams. So you are good.’


She followed him to the door out of the school. But she was still upset and she was trying very hard to control her tears. Shin has never seen her like this and he was very uncomfortable. He walked ahead of her very fast which she didn’t even realize. He hate it even more when she didn’t give her attention to him. He walked to her straight, and stopped her by grabbing her arms. She was so stunned and surprised.


‘I said quit acting like that. Its not the end. If you are gonna be like this, I wont ever talk to you again’ He shouted at her and left in a hurry.


Stunned at his madness, she just saw him walk fast and disappear behind the turn. Idiot I am gonna miss you all especially you. How can I act normal? She wanted to shout back but just withdrew her emotions and went to her house.


The next few days passed very quickly as the exams started. The students would come and talk to her after writing the exams, which she knew, would have been only because Shin told them to. They discussed their papers with her. The final exam was over, everyone was happy to go out of the school except for one red-haired student. He and Kumiko hardly spoke during the exams. She didn’t want to bother him so she always wore a smile whenever she saw him. But it was very obvious for Shin to find it out but he just kept ignoring it. The last exam being over, Shin started to go out of the class without talking to her. It hurt her very much. She finished her work and ran out of the school to catch to him but he was nowhere to be seen. She was frustrated. She was angered. She even wanted to shout and cry. Why Shin, why are you doing this to me. Is it wrong to show my emotions. Its only to you I am a bit free. I never show any of such emotions to anyone. I never had anyone like you for me. Is it wrong to think you as a special person? IS it wrong to think that you are always there for me not only when I am happy or want any suggestion but also when I want to shed tears? You are the only person who has ever seen me in such a state. Why Shin? Why? She was very upset and it was very visible in her face. But she didn’t let her tears down because he wasn’t there around to wipe it off or so she thought. She went to her home and went straight to the training hall. She punched the practicing bag till her hand fell off and she just fell to the floor. She stared the roof for long time and she was oblivious of what’s going around her.


Suddenly she heard Kyo’ voice shouting in the garden. Its better to be with some company, than to be alone, in this situation. She murmured to herself and went to find him. She was so stunned and shocked to see Shin with him. I shouldn’t have come out at all. She blamed herself but as Kyo already waved at her, she had to go to him.


‘Oujo, the young master has come to say his goodbye it seems. He’s going to go abroad for his higher studies. Isn’t he kind?’ Kyo was jabbering


She was shocked even more. It was very obvious from her expression. Even Kyo found it difficult to see his Oujo like that. He left both of them with some lame excuse.


‘So you are leaving’ She asked him


‘Why? Do you want me to be here?’


‘Why would I want that? And again, I was the one who said you are not needed in Avedo house’


‘But what’s with that ‘My world ends here’ expression on your face?’


She didn’t respond.


‘Actually I came here to say something important’ He said


She wasn’t listening. Her heart ached by the fact that she would be all-alone, after he’s gone. She was visualizing all the incidents she had with him. Seeing her not attentive, he shook her. She came back to the present.



‘hehe sorry. What were you saying’ She began acting all goofy.


‘Hey you can stop that’ he said without looking at her.


‘en? What?’


‘Your heheing ofcourse’


‘Now you don’t like my heheing too. I thought you just didn’t like me emotional. Just what should I do if I shouldn’t be emotional or heheing’


‘You are weird you know’ he said coldly.


It hurt her even more. She missed talking to him all these days and now he come and talk even more coldly. She was on the verge of loosing control over her emotions. Kumiko what happened to you? If anyone upset you, the only thing you would do is to beat them up. But you are you so weak now. Why cant you just put some sense into his brains by beating him. No I cant do that. I just cant do that to Shin. He’s not just a student to me. He’s more than that.


‘Why weren’t you talking to me the past few days?’ Kumiko asked


‘Eerrrr, you know I was busy. Don’t you?’


‘Busy han? You really don’t have to study hard I know that better than anything. You were avoiding me. Why did you do that?’


‘Well why would I do that’


‘That’s what I wanted to know’


‘What the big deal? Its only me who didn’t talk to you. All you other beloved students came to talk to you na. You were only worried about them’


‘I never said I didn’t bother about you’


‘Well, when I was still there in the class talking to you the day before exams, you were only worried that all others didn’t talk to you. Even though I was there, you only asked for them. Didn’t even bother to wish me or talk to me. Not that I expected.’ He said in a cold voice.


‘Hey I was only thinking about missing all you guys’


‘First, tell me clearly who am I to you. Am I same as Ochi and others to you? Am I like Tetsu and Minoru to you? Or am I your Shinohara?’ He said the last part with more emotion.


She just stared at him without any emotions. ‘You know you are definitely more important to me than my other students. Tetsu and Minoru would probably hate me if I tell you are much more important. But that’s the fact. And Shinohara-sensei, don’t even imagine yourself to be equal. You are much more important than any other people I have ever acquainted with. You are not my student anymore and I don’t just consider you as my bother, you are.. you are…. My FRIEND damn it. Is it that hard to understand? I always want you to be beside me. Be there for me always. I have never ever been so emotional in my whole life except for the past few days thinking that I should have to part with you.’


‘You are talking like I am your boy-friend’ He rolled his eyes but expectantly he met her eyes. There was no emotion but horror in it.


‘Shin, you idiot. All my other relations may change at any time. Many people may come in as my brothers or students. I may even end up not marrying him. But I just don’t want to be without you around. And you are NOT my boy friend. You are much more than that. My friend. My only friend. Sure I have Ms.Fujiyama but don’t you know you are the only one I always wanted to share and enjoy.’


‘err… you still talk like I am your boy-friend’


She whacked him on the head, which he dodged easily. She was even more surprised.


‘You always told don’t mess up with my business. I don’t want you to be around me. Blah blah blah….. and now you tell you want me to be by your side always’



She remained silence. Did he really not understand her emotions? Or is he really correct. Am I thinking him in Shinohara-san’ place? No way… She shook her head. He’ my student. My best one. And I want him to be by my side as he always did.



Seeing her facial reactions, Shin said, ‘Okay Kumiko! You don’t have to answer. If that’s what you want, I am more than happy to be your friend. Only that I always thought myself as a competitor to your Shinohara and I am not willing to let go of that thought for ever. I will wait till you make up your mind. I will be your friend till you call me your BF.’


Hearing her name for the first time from him, she was totally taken back. ‘What shouldn’t I call you by your name. Now that we are friends, I can call you by your name, Kumiko’ he said with a smirk.


‘Of course you are my BF’ She told with a even wide smirk.



He froze suddenly. He came near her to pull her to him. She suddenly moved aside, laughing,


‘BF means Beloved Friend Idiot’ she said running to the dining table where everyone was waiting for them.


Darn it Kumiko, I really want to be your boy-friend not just a friend. But anything to make you happy and back to normal, he thought following her to the dining table.

My Gokusen Fanfic - 1 [ Part 2]

KUMIKO'S CONFUSIONS



The next day at school, Kumiko entered the classroom of 3-D only to find the last desk empty. She went to rooftop to find that missing boy. Shin was there, lying on his back with his face covered with a book. When he heard the foot steps nearing him and knowing whose they belong to, he just stood up and took his bag and left the roof-top without even looking at her. She was a bit surprised and annoyed at his behaviour. But knowing that this is the reaction she would get after what happened the last night, she just smirked and followed him to class. Even in the class, all he did was just to see out of the window and not once, not even by mistake did he turn to look at her. She really got mad at his behaviour. She tried to talk to him but all she got for an answer was ‘Ah’.

Immediately after the school was over, Shin, much to the surprise of his gang and to the annoyance of Kumiko, left.

Uchi : Hey Shin, what has got in to you today? You behave so very abnormal

Shin : In what way?

Minami : For once, you are starting early today.

Shin : Have to go somewhere. See you guys later.

Others : Yea bye.

Kumiko, who was listening to this conversation, thought of following him. But restricted herself. ‘If hes not gonna, talk why the heck should I even bother. After all was not wrong. I just said ….’ The other mind told, ‘yea you told hes a kid, that would hurt anyone especially him when you know how mad he gets when you call him that’

Finally, she told herself, ‘I was not wrong and I am not going to be bothered by the fact that hesnt talking to me any more’ But her eyes betrayed her. Before anyone could see her in that state, she darted to her home.

On entering her home, she heard noises from the training hall and went to see whos become so sincere to train there. She almost fell off when she saw Shin training with Kyou. Suddenly, she smiled evilly, with the thought that, ‘Shin, pay-back time. If you don’t die, you are sure to at least be bed-ridden for a week’. She smirked and went off. Shin saw her smirk and became even more adamant to be trained. He just wanted to be stronger. But his determination did nothing to protect him from his trainer. He just rained punches on him. He was dead flat when the training was called off for the day. He was so relieved that day ended but felt very painful to have been knocked down in front of Kumiko.

A week passed, with Shin and Kumiko not talking with each other at the school and evenings, Kumiko would wontedly go and watch them train. She saw him progress. In a week, he had made a good improvement and was able to easily dodge Kyou’ attack and even tried to hit him back. But she wasn’t finished with her pay-back. He’s gonna get more pain than she suffered from not talking to him. ‘Oh wait! Why should I be in pain for that? He’s just another brat trying to become stronger. Why should I feel bad for not talking to him? Why do I miss him so much at school? Why do I get immense pleasure in hurting him? Why do I see him even when hes not around? Why do I want him to be with me always? I am going all crazy again, I think. She talked to herself. She shook her head and pushed her thoughts aside. Reason or no reason, I am not done punishing him for not talking with me. So what if he’s become good, I would find a way so that he would be flat tomorrow too, in pain. You are so mean her mind told her Why thank you, the other mind told and laughed heartily. He deserves it for hurting me. Wait, why should I be hurt in the first place. Oh God, Whatever is happening to me? She looked at herself in the mirror but couldn’t see her. All she saw was Shin standing when she was so sure he wouldn’t enter her room. She sighed.

The next day at school, during the break, Noda was telling his group about the girl he’s gonna date that weekend. Everyone started talking about girls except for Shin. Kumiko, out of no-where came and joined the conversation. Everyone was quite startled to see her join them. She came down upon them for going out at such young age.

Minami : en? “Young age” Who’s young? We are high school students what do you expect?

Kumiko : Yes. You are just school students. You shouldn’t be engaging yourself in such acts

Noda : Why did you even bother joining our conversation, Yankumi. You very well know, we wont listen to you anyway. And Dating is our birthright. Now, just buzz off.

Kumiko was about to silence him with her punch, when she heard

Shin : umm, dating aren’t that bad I should say.

Everyone gaped at that sentence from him.

Noda : Did you really say what you said now Shin?

Shin : [That idiot Yankumi, if I hadn’t blurted that sentence, her cover would have blown out Ah [Idiot, making me say such non-sensical sentences

Uchi : Hey, we know you are behaving weird these days Shin. But we never thought this change would ever happen. So tell us what kinda girl you like.

Shin : “ “

Kumiko : Say it [staring at him, all these time

Shin : I don’t think physical appearance would turn me. But I certainly wouldn’t let my girl have pig tails or glasses

Everyone turned to look at Kumiko and laughed.

Uchi : Don’t worry Shin, not all girls have as bad taste as Yankumi.

They roared again. Shin tried his best to pull Uchi and others away from fuming Kumiko.

Kumiko : Then what kinda girl you like[she cried out after him

He stopped suddenly, went near her, and asked “Why? You want to change for me?”

She turned beet red and moved away from the group everyone now laughing even more.

That brat Sawada, who does he think he is. Talking to me like that. I just wanted to rip his head off but couldn’t do with everyone around. I will smash him when he comes today for practice with Kyou. In the evening, at Avedo house, Shin was in his practice when Kyou came and informed Kumiko about his progress.

Kumiko : Yes Kyou-san I saw that yesterday. You are such a good trainer. She smiled.

So you have become too good han? So what, I will beat you dead no matter what. If I cant make much damage out then I will kill u inside. Lets see how you take this. She thought of something and went to her room and locked it behind her.

Next day morning, she messaged him to come to school a little bit early and wait for her in the roof-top. Knowing her, he thought, she would come and either lecture him or gonna beat him to pulp. But he did come early and waited for her. He was lying down with a book over his face, when he sensed her coming near him.

‘Why you called me Yankumi?’ He asked without any interest in his voice. ‘If you want to fight, then your place is perfect not the roof-top.’

‘I didn’t come to fight you, Shin’ She said with a voice which Shin couldn’t believe to be her’s and also she called him by his name. He took the book off his face and gaped at the scene. She was standing so close to him but not in her usual outfit but in a very different outfit Shin can ever imagine on her. She was wearing golden-honey coloured dress rolling down till her feet with small red and black frills spreading across her chest diagonally. She looked absolutely stunning in it with her hair neatly combed without a pigtail and she had had it in her front, which covered one of her naked shoulder. The other shoulder had a thin strip, which held the dress on to her. And there were no glasses. As it was very early, only 7.00 am no one was in the school and also the sun was just rising. She was glittering in its rays. He could hardly breath when he saw her. He took a whole 5min to get it registered in his mind that it is in real his Kumiko. He sat up at once.

‘What happened Shin? Why are you staring at me like that? Did you see your girl in me or what? She bent near his ears and whispered. It was too much for him. He was loosing his control. All he wanted to do was to hold her tight in his embrace and steal her lips. Her voice was so seductive. He really couldn’t believe it himself. He has never imagined her like that before. It was all so sudden that he was thoroughly confused. He stood up still not out of that trace. He realized, she was standing dangerously close to him. Her smile, or rather was it a smirk, was taunting him. He just wanted to press his lips against those. When he walked unconsciously close to her, she let him near her and when he bent to kiss her, she whispered in his ears, ‘What are you doing, my dear student?. You are six years younger than me. Did you forget?’ in a very sweet voice. It took him several minutes for him to understand what she told him. But it had the effect she was planning for. His face showed reaction. It was all- shock, anger, emptiness and even hatred. She smirked again and said, ‘Never ever underestimate what I can do. SAWADA’ She told him and quickly went down to get changed to her normal Yankumi style, leaving behind emotionally tormented Shin on the roof-top alone.

Shin couldn’t stand there, he thought, the earth under his feet was giving away and he fell on his knees. ‘Oh God! What has she done to me? That, That, …..’ He couldn’t find a word to express his hatred to her at that moment. Everything was so blurred to him at that moment. He thought its best to be out of school even before it commenced and just go somewhere away from her where he wouldn’t be able to think about anything. But he didn’t want to be alone fearing, loneness would remind him of her and that too in the close proximity he had with her a few min before. He thought sparring would take his mind off this scene and went straight to Kyou. Kyou was very surprised to see Shin at that hour and wanted to ask what happened. But seeing his face, it was crystal clear that he was severely beaten inwardly. He just said nothing and when Shin asked for practice he was more glad to help him out. They sparred all through the day. When Kyou went on a break, Shin even called Tetsu and Minoru to fight him. He didn’t even want one idle time with him that day. The evening came, Kyou had tried to get the answer out of Shin but was futile. Kumiko entered the household and saw a very depressed and exhausted Shin lying on the backyard just staring at the sky.

When she realized, only she and Shin are in the house all alone, Kumiko came near him smirked at Shin who was still lying on the floor.

Kumiko : So you are still a KID, just trying to be all hero. I just saw Kyou going out. He told you could hardly evade his kicks today. You were just having fluke all these days it seems.

She seemed a bit back to normal because her anger had been satisfied with his torn down look this morning. She even pitied him in the morning and blushed at the thought that he actually could have kissed her.

Shin seeing her normal, smiled and got up, went near her as close as he can and whispered in her ears, “Had I been just a kid to you, then you wouldn’t have done what you did today morning.”

Kumiko was so shocked and thunderstruck, very blushed because of the closeness and because of what he told, “en? What? Umm?” is all what she could say.

Shin smirked and came in even close as if he’s gonna kiss her. She closed her eyes tight without thinking of moving or stopping him. She could feel his presence near him, so close, that it was becoming hard for her to breathe. Why didn’t I feel like this in the morning. Oi, who said you didn’t feel like this? You looked even more pathetic than him when he didn’t kiss you, just that your ego got better of you and for once it was for good else your little plan would be all miserably failed, her inner mind shouted at her. She opened her eyes and found him gone from there. She felt angry she felt sudden urge to shout at him but didn’t understand for what? Should she be mad at him for coming so close to her or for not kissing her? She was confused and hurt. She saw him stepping into the streets with his back to her. But she definitely knows how his face would be. He was having the wickedest smirk he ever had.

She was about to break down. She just sat on the ground not wanting to fall because of her shivering legs. She let some tears drop from her eyes before she realized a note in her had. The scene went through her mind once again. After she shut her eyes, she could sense him take her hand and squeeze it. Then he suddenly let go off her hand and it took some time for her to open her eyes. He must have thrust the paper then.

It read : JUST TWO MORE MONTHS FOR GRADUATION. AFTER THAT YOU ARE MINE. AND NEVER WEAR THAT KINDA DRESS AROUND ME BEFORE THAT TIME.

She just smiled. I know your weakness now Shin Sawada, she smirked. ‘And I am happy to know it’ she said aloud to herself.